sabar

sabarrrr..

sabar tu kene byk2.. 

sabar kene simpan ketat2 dlm diri..

sbb bila tgh teringat,

aku hanya cuma mampu sabarkan diri......

(T_T) be strong.....

totally wrong

aku rasa something weird.

when i started to feel something extremely weird to unexpected person.

this is totally wrong...

need to do something asap...

or 

i will hurt for another cycle...

nauzubillahiminzalik

part time job

org tanya, tak malu ke buat part time kt supermarket.

tah, aku tak rasa malu pon... jadi promoter utk syampu keluaran UNILEVER.

berkampungla aku 12jam sehari on weekend kt tesco mutiara damansara.

penat toksah ckp laa.. berdiri je.. tp aku tak promote sesgt.. just ckp2 kepada org2 yg tgh blur nak carik syampu apa.. 

pastu byk sembang dgn budak yg keje susun barang.. tu pon die busy takde sembang sgt,

minggu seterusnya aku kt giant kota damansara.. time tu ramai promoter, so takde bosan sgt.. letih mmg letih giler.. kembang tapak kaki aku..

tp besoknye aku tak dtg, ganti budak laen.. sbb aku rasa belakang aku sakit yg bukan main2.. aduii da tua2 ni tak larat btoi nak tala badan gitu gaya...

happy 35th birthday to me

Happy birthday to me.

yg ke 35... 

aku harap.. aku masih kuat dan bulih mengesot2 utk hadapi segala dugaan.

Thanks mak, adik beradik, kekawan... setia disisi, di tepi wasep utk aku..

move on, mengesot, merangkak,berjalan dan terus berlari..

yg lepas tu lepas lah.. biarkan ia pergi...

slowly but surely

org ckp,

die da ada perempuan laen,

sbb tu dia tak pernah endahkan aku,

aku je laa mereput sensorg,

dok kikis mende yg melekat ni haa...

slowly but surely,

because i cant bear the pain.....

hari kedua

2nd day i had a dream about him,

standing in front of me, but i can't see his face clearly..

i just know it is him...

mimpi, mungkin sbb aku rindu kt dia..

takleh jumpa in real life, i just can see him in my dream.....

redha

thanks friends,

sabarkan aku.............

kene sabar bebyk,

biar org nak buat kite...... 

Allah tu ada

kronik

semlm masa paling kronik aku,

pepagi ika da throwback komen aku dia yg meenachi seko tu... 

damn, teringatttt sgt kisah lama.

buat kerja berlinang2 airmata...

damn.. felt so stupid, kenapa kene bersedih sedangkan the other party tgh bergembira meraikan kekecewaan ko... *hempuk kepala kt keyboard*

move on please, move on,

sudah2 yer.. penat da berusaha utk bersama dgn dia, bukan kejap.. 2 tahun lebih kut,

kite rehat dulu yer... jgn pertikai ketentuan Allah.. tu kene igt dan paling penting

masa berlalu

productivity hour aku paling teruk antara my teammates.

need to do something, 

biar tercicir dlm love relationship,

jangan terbuang terus dlm kerjaya, ni je yg aku ada skrg....

the hardest journey

one of my hardest time in my life.

instead of losing my dad, got worst performance evaluation from my manager, and losing him.

hari ni,

tangan shaking, hati pedih mendidih, i really want to shout to him that how hurt i am and how i miss him so bad.

tgn menggeletar nak pegang mouse, how to call my partner dgn suara yg shaking... yg mana ko kene keep profesional and tak terbawa2 masalah peribadi kt ofis, yg ko kene tahan all the sadness, and smile in front of your colleagues...

yg aku tak boleh nak jejak kedai2 dan tempat2 yg aku spend masa dgn dia, the first place we had meals together... sampai kedai last yg mana dia ckp dia dan mak dia taleh terima aku.....

my god, im so sad... extremely sad